Springing Foward

Last week spring showed up.

It was so refreshing that I caught myself smiling every time I went outside and found myself amongst the sunshine and flowers.

There’s something so magical about transition seasons.

It reminds me that life continues on.

We deal with the mundane and the ordinary every day.

Get caught up in routines and unnecessary details that tend to bog us down .

Then all of a sudden you look up and the trees are in bloom, and you stop short at its beauty.

Its nice to take a break and appreciate the wonders that are occurring around us all the time. Wandering through the woods is oddly calming.Its almost like time stands still… and peace abounds.It’s nice to stop and smell the roses. (or Bradford Pears-sidenote:Bradford Pears, while they look pretty do NOT smell pretty.)Either way, it’s important to slow down and connect with who you are.For me this can come in the form of nature walks…lake driving…and getting lost in a good book or movie.Another thing spring reminds me of is newness.

When the forest comes alive and the ground bursts with color, I become motivated to come out of “winternation” and go out, explore, and try new things.

I’ve been taking ballet classes for a little bit now and I’m in love with it! The first class was scary, not to mention difficult, but now I look forward to class every week-and my turnout is improving!

I’ve been trying and proceeding rather slowly with learning French, all while researching this trip to Europe…

and just last week I purchased my plane tickets for our Backpacking Europe Trip!

It’s incredibly scary and exciting, but that’s the point isn’t it?

Life begins when you step outside of your comfort zone.

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Your Best Self

Today I want to talk about being the best possible version of yourself.

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In this technologically driven society we live in, it’s easy to be over exposed to those with so called “perfect lives”. We see the constant updates on social media, hear about the exciting things others are up to, and in turn, we naturally compare our own lives to theirs. Obviously we are going to fall short when we know the raw details (including the ups and downs) of our own lives and are only exposed to the edited and abbreviated version of others. When we make any comparison of our own lives to others, whether it be an upward or downward comparison, we are cheating ourselves and those we look at with judgmental eyes by only looking at what is presented to us instead of the whole story.

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 *I think there’s an important distinction to be made between comparing yourself with others and trying to be more like them (which is often depressing as you are denying your true self), and holding someone in high esteem as a role model of sorts-the trick is to be aware of how you are viewing the person. Are you trying to mimic them and live like they do? Are you bitter or envious of them? Or are you merely inspired by them and seek to better your life by taking cues from them?

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Once you become aware of this tendency you realize how destructive it can be-I was having this conversation with a good friend the other day, (lets call her J) and she pointed out that you just gotta live YOUR life. It sounds so simple, but I’ve used it as my mantra for the past week and it has made the biggest difference.

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Every time I felt the slightest twinge of envy or jealousy creep up, I would repeat that mantra back and I instantly became intent on bettering myself as opposed to focusing on what I didn’t have.

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Which brings me to being the best possible version of yourself.

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I think its easy to become complacent in our daily lives-we get busy, we have routines, we make unhealthy easy choices, instead of difficult ones that mean a better future for us and our loved ones. We lose sight of childhood dreams and sometimes put ourselves second to the point of losing our identity. We get so caught up in the nuisances of life, that we lose sight of the big picture.

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Being your best self, to me, means constantly challenging yourself, never stop learning, always look for the bright side of things (the sunshine), never taking yourself too seriously, and always maintain the mindset that you can never be done with the project that is you.

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Which is why I am making this the year that I scare myself silly. I’m going to backpack Europe. I’m going to strike up conversations with strangers. I’m going to work on nurturing relationships I currently have and challenge my loved ones to be their best self. I’m going to explore places in my home city that I’ve always wanted to, but have been too afraid to go alone. I’m going to turn off my phone and get lost somewhere. I’m going to try and teach myself French in 3 months. I’m going to go to live shows and poetry readings, and get back to the theatre. I’m going to a ballet class tonight because I used to dance as girl and miss it so! (pics to follow, as I’m sure they’ll be hilarious)

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The point is this-never stop trying. Always challenge yourself. Look at your life with fresh eyes and realize that we only get one shot to be great.

 Live YOUR life- and make it your best one.

Update: went to that ballet class and had SUCH an amazing time!!! Chase your dreams people!

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Planning the Trip

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I’ve been planning this trip for a while as a graduation present to myself, and it seems like it’s finally coming to fruition!

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It’s been incredibly exciting outlining the trip and putting together an itinerary, but also extremely headache inducing!

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(Current mood)

Either way this trip is finally happening!
My sister and I will be backing through Europe for 2-3 weeks in June, starting in London and making our way though France and down Italy! I think the hardest part is going to be narrowing down the list of places to see as I feel it could be endless!

I’d love to hear any travel advice you guys have as this will be out first trip overseas!

Also thanks to The Savvy Backpacker for your awesome website that makes planning so easy, and to my friend Megan for the awesome travel journal!

Snowed In

So it snowed here in Kansas City last night.

Not too much, but enough to cause me to be sufficiently trapped in my neighborhood and thus forced to stay bundled up inside all day-definitely not complaining though!

It was a perfect excuse to spend some much needed quality time with my sister!

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(shopping at the Plaza at Christmas)

Speaking of my sister, let me tell you a bit about her.

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(at the salon Christmas Party)

First of all she is my person. She’s the constant in my life who never wavers and is always loyal. I can’t imagine a better friend, so it’s kind of crazy that we ended up being sisters.

She’s the most kind, sweet, thoughtful & hilarious person who always is supportive, yet never hesitant to call me on my crap. Best of all she goes along with my crazy antics and inspires me to be a better person everyday.

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I’m lucky enough to have had her as my best friend almost my entire life (I’m older), and I hope all of you have a person who you can count on no matter what.

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(shopping shenanigans)

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(detective work)

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(full cat mode)

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(celebrating her college acceptance)

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(campus tour after Kayla got accepted)

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(animal versions of ourselves-guess which one I am?)

You get the point.

Normally I’d spend the snow day playing in the snow and building snowmen-or snowcats in my case (complete with snow mouse)…

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but instead we decided to make pasta and have a Harry Potter marathon-something I’d always recommend, snow day or not.

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Here’s to spontaneous Mondays!

Hello world!

My name is Natosha Rose, but I also respond to Tosh, Tosha, T-Money, or Emmanuel if I’m feeling fancy (or wearing a hat). Welcome to my blog! Here I will give you a sneak peak into the caverns of my mind-enter at your own risk.

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About me:

I am a recent graduate with a Bachelors Degree in Psychology and a minor in Anthropology. I am currently working at the Psychology lab at my alma mater as a research assistant and as a salon manager at the most fantastic salon in the Kansas City area. Eventually I hope to have my own counselling practice working with children, or perhaps be able to work in the academic field in some capacity, but to do so I have to obtain my doctorate in Psychology first. So that’s the current journey I’m on.

For years my sister Makayla and I have talked about starting a blog. We wanted to do a sister’s blog, a foodie blog, a travel blog, a beauty blog, and about a million other types of blogs. Eventually we decided to branch out and do our own thing as our ideas have changed and matured over the years, so this is basically going to be a smorgasbord of all of my interests and life experiences. I guess you could say this is my attempt at baring my soul to the world. Here goes!

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Interests: First of all I am a coffee addict, anyone who knows me, knows I always have coffee in hand. Day or night. It’s a problem. I know. I’m working on it. I am a connoisseur of Wes Anderson films, a bookshop junkie, a crazy cat lady and an all around weirdo. I love all animals and am passionate about green living; over the past year I have transitioned into being a full time vegetarian/aspiring vegan and have never felt better! I also love all things academic- I read till the wee hours of the morning because consuming words is my passion-I’m not picky about genre either, I have an insatiable thirst for knowledge. I love working with kids and used to be a nanny for about 4 years, it was an incredibly rewarding time in my life and inspired my current career aspirations. I am a huge family person and spend an exorbitant about of time with my sister-she’s my person. Currently we are in the early stages of planning a backpacking trip through Europe and in the mean time I am attempting to teach myself French (posts to come on this mad idea). I guess you could say I like to keep busy…

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Despite endless editing, this whole post feels a bit like word vomit, so I’ll wrap it up. Thank you for taking the time to read this, in doing this blog I hope to connect with like-minded people and share my journey-for what is life if you don’t have stories to tell at the end of the day? *A word about the name of this blog– Spoiler Alert: I have a rare blood disorder that often causes me to have jaundice in my eyes. It is something I keep private and have accepted and come to terms with a long time ago-but that wasn’t always the case. When I was young I was ridiculed endlessly for my “yellow eyes”- I felt self loathing in a way that was all consuming. Eventually I grew to accept who I am and the fact that I can’t change some things. But I spent many wasted years isolating myself and seeing my illness as a curse. That all changed about 10 years ago; I began to know myself, accept and eventually  love who I am. Since then, every day I remind myself to keep my chin up and find beauty in all things. I came to find that the world is a beautiful place full of beautiful people when you’ve got your eyes to the heavens. I began to see the bad as good-I began to see the yellow in my eyes as sunshine. If you were to take away only one thing from this blog, I hope it would be this-always keep your chin up and look for the beauty in all things-for what is life without sunshine in your eyes?